Sunday, December 31, 2006 @ 4:42 PM
  HAPPY
NEW
YEARS
DAY
[bole so nihal sat sri akal]:)
@ 3:09 AM
  borednesssss...
its new year's eve
:D
mom and dad are at vivo city i think
having dinner somewhere
and we just had really yummylicious pizza
the whole sibling clan..
together
it was hell fun
but wow.
tmr its 2007
and i'll be turning 16 in 11 days
its almost too much happening all at once
:S
scaryness....
oh well
i think we're gonna watch madagascar later...
erwin, me and ash
the 3 amigos sisters
:D
exciting
and yep i think i might stay up late tonight...
just to wait till the clock strikes 12
07
new year
new life
new me
and i'm not gonna mess it up this time.
Friday, December 29, 2006 @ 7:58 PM
  argh.trip to malaysia was
Horrible with a capital
Hyep i got to see my grandparents...
that was cool.
until someone decided to show up
i fucking hate you
go to hell
you don't care about us
i don't know why everyone still talks to you
you've put my mom through shit
and you still have the decency to show up when we're there?
shame on you
and ashwin still thinks you're the same
bullshit.
you are always gonna be the caniving, little bitch that you were two years ago
its funny eh?
the other day at the airport...
i smiled at you
and what did you do?
you turned your face in the opposite direction.
and you still expect me to acknowledge you after that?
oh yeah.
totally.
you didn't even apologise
you didn't say hi to me
or anything.
whore.
its no wonder you can't have children
god prolly doesn't want you to have any
you would treat them like shit.
serves you right.
you take your manwhore of a husband and stay out of my family's and my life
before you start accusing my mom of mistreating you again.
don't want a repeat do we?
cunt
Wednesday, December 27, 2006 @ 12:52 AM
  bluewat's with life?
why does it keep making me feel like shit.
life is just crap for me
ugh.
i
hate my dad.
why is he such an asshole?
and i thought he had changed.
bullshit.
he hasn't changed a bit.
maybe next time you should think befoe you go around accusing me eh?
well....to bad.
i've lost my trust in you.
i don't care if you've apologised.
i don't care if you tried to bribe me with buying me that
stupid game
you're just gonna have to wait till i actually trust you ever again.
which, i'm guessing, is still a long time away.
sucked in eh?
your friggin fault.
i saw an animal die yesterday.
a
real animal being eaten brutally by my own
dogO_O + :'(
it was a little squirrel.
my dog just bit into it
and started eating it.
right in front of my face.
i think i saw its eye pop out.
or something.
:'(
it was disgusting
but more than that..
it was just brutal and barbaric.
i mean, i don't blame my dog...
he's a
dogof course he doesn't know better.
but...
it was just such a cruel act.
i can't even look at him anymore without feeling disgusted
after he ate the thing...
he walked up to me and started licking my leg
i told him to fuck off..
he got so scared he just ran away..
:(
why is life so fricken difficult and heartbreaking?
Monday, December 25, 2006 @ 2:48 AM
  merry xmas everyonehope everyone's having a great one
:)
today's just been a "family day"
pretty fun
went to video ezy and borrowed a shitload of dvds
and got mcdonalds for lunch
and sooo i've been watching one tree hill episodes the whole day!
:D
so much fun!
finally i can watch the whole season!
YAYNESS
and my little cutey-pie doggy is wearing a santa clause costume
he's so CUTE
haha
and yep we're gonna have a nice dinner today and yayayayayay
funfun
and and and
dal and
ahnu we have to friggin have another sleepover before you guys start friggin school again
!!!
and go see a movie
and go shopping
cos i need new clothes
and and and x2
I CAN'T WAIT TILL MY BDAY
yayness
i want more cds
i want...
slipknot
manson
atreyu
a7x
the rasmus
incubus
pantera
hoobastankand and and x3
much more
:D
I'M HIGHHHHHHHHHHHH
Sunday, December 24, 2006 @ 8:26 AM
  arghwhy is life so complicated?
sometimes i wish i my dad didn't change
then maybe i wouldn't be feeling like this right now
why the hell is he being so nice to me?he's talking to me all the time
he wants me to sit next to him
he congratulated me for my good grades
he wants to take me for drives, like when i was a little girl
he does that holding hand thing in the car that we used to do when i was like 6
he hugs me
he calls me 'cute'
he takes me out
and now, he wants to sleep in my room cos 'he doesnt get to do it for the rest of the year'
sigh.
wat am i supposed to think?
wat does
he expect me to think?
does he think that i'm just gonna accept wats happening and that he's changed for the better?
well...
no.
i mean, he hasn't given two fucks about me since i was 8
why start now?
i'm so used to him putting me down all the time.
i can't stand it! he's being nice to me!
i dunno....maybe i'm just not used to it.
but it just seems to weird to me.
i think there's something he's not telling me.
and i don't really wanna find out what it is.
@ 3:47 AM
  ITS XMAS BABYhehe
merry xmas people..
even though its only the eve.
party today..
very last minute.
my parents are holding a gathering for about 12-15 ppl
with gorgeously gd food
cooked specially by chef david.
he's so cool!
but yeah we have turkey, beef, ham, some spanish rice dish (with yummy seafood), cocktail prawns, and yep loads of other things.
it will be sooo yummylicious!
yayay
i think uncle kc and surlee are already downstairs
i can hear them from the 3rd floor.
and i think some of the doctors are here too.
argh i hate saying hi to them...
they're so awkward.
ugh.
oh well.
and aunty andrea isn't coming!
:(
so sad
oh well..
i'll see her sometime soon.
Friday, December 22, 2006 @ 7:22 AM
  i'm very very VERY bored right now.
arghi think i shall rant now
to overcloud the boredom inside of me
ok.
where am i gonna start?
ok i got it.
satwant is gonna be at the airport later.
he's picking up mama and the rest and sending them back to jb
oh no.
i hope i don't bump into him
i dont
want to bump into him
it would be the worst thing EVER
argh
even my dad's scared lol.
and yep i feel disgusting now
i feel fat.
i think i've put on weight.
argh i have to stop eating!
i hate feeling fat
i'm such a big fat pig.
eek.
and hahaha the funniest thing happened today.
erwin was sitting in her room on her computer (or rather, my dad's sony lappy)
and i was playing around in the room when i spotted her
red bag
and wat do i do?
i take it right in front of her eyes and
SCREAM that i'm gonna kidnap it
then i tie a not at the straps..
and shove it into the cupboard
LOL
it was so funny
and as usual, she was pretending that she wasn't listening to me...or that she wasn't bothered
and then the inevitable happened..
just a few minutes ago..
erwin comes storming up the stairs asking me if i know where her red bag is!
LOL x2
and i just burst out laughing
duh
and she looks at me...and her look turns into a evil glare..
and she's like "WHERE IS MY BAG? YOU TOOK IT RIGHT?"
lol
and i'm like I TOLD YOU WHERE IT IS
i did it right in front of her friggin eyes
lol thats the beauty of erwin
well...
she yanked at my hair
and i screamed
then she ran downstairs with jasmin and aunty janam laughing at her
and retrieved her dearest piece of belonging
:D
i feel so happy that i tricked her once again
first, the hard drive in the dustbin..and now the bag in the cupboard
wat next?
;)
Thursday, December 21, 2006 @ 8:31 AM
  hahaha WOW
i've posted so many times today...
but i'm just posting now...at 12:31am
cos dal just sent me the PHOTOS from the wedding!
well...some anyways
i'm gonna get more soon
and i'll post it up!
these were the really cool souveniors we got to take home..little candle holders with our names on them:
Me sandwiched between the loveliest girls in the world. I love you guys. <3. [Notice we all decided to show up in black dresses lol...and curls:D]
SHOES! Haha..um yup mine are the ones with the jewels...and the other one belongs to Ahnu...very sexy shoes honey.
um..yep the famous tape bra. i will have fond memories of you for the rest of my life...good times eh?
Hehe..me and Nikita. She's such a CUTEY PIE.
yep so that's all i have at the moment...
tune in for more coming...
@ 6:36 AM
  OH MY FRIGGIN GOD[sorry God!!]BUTI am now typing this very blogger post in my
NEW 13'' BLACK MACBOOKyou do
not know how
excited i am
it's so cool!
:D
it's got EVERYTHING on it i can't believe it!
it's got a windows and mac system installed into it
and it's got itunes, imovie, idvd, safari, spotlight, photobooth, garageband LIKE THE WHOLE FRIGGIN PACKAGE BABY
and it cost less (including accessories) than my stupid tablet pc
i am so glad i got this computer
and also on a happy note...
jasmin got into
crescentYAY
soo erwin and i are goin to the school tmr to help her buy books and uniforms etc
its so cool!
hehe
so scary going back to my old school.
and mommy's coming back tomorrow!
well..actually saturday at 2 30am but oh well
we're gonna have to stay up tmr night anyways
argh tmrs gonna be such a tiring day...
i gotta wake up to go to jasmin's new sch
and i'm prolly only gonna go to bed at like 4 cos we're going to pick mom up from the airport.
how fun
Wednesday, December 20, 2006 @ 6:59 PM
  OMGMacbook here I come!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006 @ 8:28 PM
  lalala
bored.
was supposed to go to plaza with erwin today..
but i'm so lazy
got up so late lol.
damness
just waiting for oprah to start at 1
then i'm gonna take a shower
and laze
:D
mommy's coming back on friday
:D x2
YAYNESS
and i'm most likely getting my black 13'' macbook TOMORROW BABY
YESH
i'm so EXCITEDand its so cool
it even comes with a little remote for when you watch movies and stuff
so chic
:D x3.
soo yeahh daddy's gonna take me to get it tmr at funan
and then i'll FINALLY have a laptop again!
yippee for that
so yeah.
on a sadder note...
why is it that the world is filled with ignorant self-centered judgemental people?
i really wonder.
why is it that people have to judge you on first glance?
don't they have the common sense to really get to know you first, before they start listening to their friends and thinking that you're a wackjob?
why are people so afraid to give others a chance?
how can people be so cruel and heartless?
we're civilised, human beings for godsake
stop acting like barbarians.
knock some sense into that tiny immature little brain of yours.grow up.
@ 3:09 AM
  ok
this will be one of my ultimate goals in life.
i am going to help the less fortunate.
and i mean it
i'm sick of seeing pictures of dying orphans on tv
and today was a real wake-up call for me
i was watching the oprah show
today's episode was about her christmas mission in south africa helping the orphans there
and i couldnt bear to see all those starving orphans
half of them prolly have hiv and are gonna die
its just too much.
i can't stand it.
so i have a new goal for myself
by the time i am a retired, old woman
i would have made a difference in the world.
somehow.
helping the less fortunate.
bringing smiles to people's faces
even if it is only for a few minutes
i will make a difference.
Sunday, December 17, 2006 @ 6:23 PM
  OMG
i cannot believe all of this is finally over.
phew.
this week has been so hectic its unbelievable.
first, the stupid lenghas didn't wanna come
so i made a new lengha to wear to the dance
cos there was no time to wait anymore.
and what do you know?
on saturday morning, at 12nn sharp.
i get a phone call from erwin...
the lenghas had come
and they were so PRETTY
they were gorgeous beyond gorgeous
:(
and they came with matching bangles and jewellery sets.
ARGH
so once ahnu's mom came back from the church wedding, we rushed to arab street to get the linings and begged the tailor to sew them for us.
she agreed...reluctantly.
she didn't promise us anything though.
so from her place, we rushed to mcdonalds to get some lunch
and went back to ahnu's place...
then we showered...
and went to do our hair
and look prettyful
:D
and then we practiced with the skirts..
it was a nightmare..
mine was too long
i was falling everywhere.
but oh well.
then we had to get ready...
and the worst part was...
the fucking ****** ***
very funny incident
tape and all.
LOL.
and we rushed to the four seasons..
we were already late.
and on the way there, the tailor called us up and said she couldnt finish the lenghas on time..
so we were panicking like all hell.
and ahnu's mom said to just finish up my black one and i'll just wear that..
since ahnu and dal already had their older ones
and that was solved.
the wedding was pretty grand.
we got lots of photos taken.
and the coolest part was, there was this photo guy who would take photos and then print them on the spot for you...
it was really cool.
the food was shit btw.
mushrooms with feta cheese and asparagus?
ew.
anyways, after a bit, we went and got changed.
and found out that my black top was sewn crooked and my skirt was WAY too long.
soo ahnu's mom and auntie jo had to pin it up with safety pins.
THANK GOD for that.
and the top wasnt so noticable so oh well.
then we practiced with them
and then we were on stage
doing our thing
it was so scary at first.
but once i was on there, i was fine.
it felt gd.
:D
and everyone was cheering for us.
felt like a celebrity.
:D
and after the dance, everyone was comin up to us and saying how we were really gd.
one lady even asked dal if she was in a dance school!
lol.
it was pretty cool.
anyways, after that we got changed back into our dresses.
and had the main course which was fish.
it was pretty gd.
then we had dessert.
which was prolly the best.
CHOCOLATE CAKE YUMMYLICIOUS
and the tension was all gone
:D
YAYNESS
auntie pris gave us $50 each for the dance
:D
and the bride and groom...
$28
O_O
CHEAPOS!
ugh.
its cool.
and we played around with the little kids for the rest of the night..
throwing rose petals at each other.
it was really fun.
and watchin drunk people...
even more fun.
haha
there was one guy..
he just sat next to me and started patting me on the head calling me 'sweety'
it was quite funny to watch.
and then he started talking about tasmania to me
and then he made his other drunk friends do a toast to me, dal and ahnu for the dance.
really funny.
and yeahhh it was cool.
then we waited for ahnu's mom to finish talking
which was like FOREVER
lol
ahnu's poor dad.
oh well.
we left at about 1 30am
so tired
and went straight to bed..
not before getting the tape off
LOL.
Monday, December 11, 2006 @ 6:42 PM
  ok
i'm SO sleepy!
HELP
i'm like gonna drop dead very soon.
i had to get up at 6 30 today...
why?
to take blood
=_="
nice.
daddy had an early case at 7
and dal and ahnu are over...
sooo i couldnt go to his clinic later in the morning to get it done
so he did it at home
argh
i was half asleep
and then he poked the needle in
and i was like 'WTF'
haha
it was funny
and he took so long to take out 10ml of blood
and then he was scaring me with the blood
he knows how scared i am of needles and blood.
so after he transferred the blood into the test tube thingys,
he put it to my skin
and OMFG my blood was so warm it wasnt funny
it was like warm muffin type warm
SHIT
it was so freaky
to think that it was inside my body
ew.
*feeling sick*
sooo i've been awake since then
couldnt go back to sleep
dal and ahnu are still sleeping.
haha x2.
gotta wait for them to get up.
i dont feel like doing the dance today
argh
i'm feeling weak and sick and just ew
i just wanna be alone and sleep and rest and watch tv the whole day
:D
have a lazy day, you know?
i [heart] lazy days
Friday, December 08, 2006 @ 6:50 AM
  today was one weird day man.
woke up and had cornflakes after the longest time...
i usually hate cornflakes they're ew.
but i somehow had a craving for them...
OMG AM I PREGNANT?
haha
then dad took us out to the heeren
cos i needed to buy a dress...
but i didn't find anything so
oh well.
then we went to taka
for sushi!
:D
yummylicious!
i wasnt talking to dad though..
we had a huge argument in the car
:S
it was not pretty...
but i dont care
he deserved every little bit of wat i said to him
then we went to kino
and i bought 3 mags
then we came home
and i lazed around the whole day...
then i practiced the dance
and now i'm on the com
been trying to call mom
but it aint working
:(
so sad
Wednesday, December 06, 2006 @ 2:39 AM
  i wish i was dead
i wish people would stop caring about me
there is no point
they should just forget about me
its not like i dont feel forgotten all the time anyway
just give up with me
cos i've given up on myself
Tuesday, December 05, 2006 @ 7:49 AM
  ookkayyy
in my room with dal and ahnu right now.
watchin napoleon dynamite
its alright i guess.
i don't see what the big fuss is over this movie.
it ain't THAT good.
lol.
anyways
i feel like crap right now.
and no one is gonna understand
i wish i could talk to pammy right this second.
she is the only perosn i can really confide in.
she's lovely
:D
i wish sukhwin would stop pitying himself and start becoming a man.
the only reason why he started hitting himself today was because dal and ahnu were there.
its so obvious.
if mom was around, he would have NEVER done it
i hate it
sometimes i just wish i had a NORMAL brother
but then i kick myself for thinking that
he's my brother
i shouldn't say stuff like that
but its so hard
no one understands
and everyone thinks its so easy to make friends
WELL ITS NOT
lets face it,
i'm never gonna make friends
i'm gonna stay like this for the rest of my life.
no one notices me
i'm just so normal.
i'm not pretty
and thats obvious
no guys EVER notice me.
there must be something really wrong with me
i hate myself.
i can't stand it anymore.
seriously.
i'm about to kill myself.
and i'm not even joking.
i just feel like jumping off the top of a building and
THE END.
Saturday, December 02, 2006 @ 6:08 PM
  OMG
mommy's gone!
:(
i can't believe i didn't say bye to her
i'm so sad
she's gone till the 22nd
wat am i supposed to do without my mommy?!
:( x2
oh well.
gonna be pretty busy these weeks comin up
you would think comin back here would mean HOLIDAY but noooooo
lol
gotta practice for the dance thingy
its gotta look perfect for the wedding
me and ma sexy gals dal and ahnu
yayness
my mom's gonna go buy the lenghas tmr when she visits her usual supplier
haha
i can't believe i'm gonna wear a backless, midriff-bearing lengha
:S
self-conscious
oh well x2
the dance is pretty sexy
knowing dal and ahnu
lol
its gd
anyways...
i'm goin DRESS SHOPPING
at The Hereen
love that place
there are like tons of sales happening there at the moment
sooo happy!
:D
and then i gotta buy makeup and jewellery and shoes to match!
and i gotta figure out wat i'm gonna do with my hair
and yeahh theres a lot to do...
plus practicing day in day out
argh
some holiday
wish i had stayed for the formal!
seems like everyone had so much fun!
well...
i wouldve
if it wasnt for the dance.
dal and ahnu asked me first soo...
oh well
Friday, December 01, 2006 @ 1:40 AM
  i'm writing in here again
lolness
i'm kinda bored right now.
you know how when i didn't have internet in fahan i'm like OMG when i get my internet back i'm gonna do sooo many things..
well i have my internet back now..
but i'm still bored.
ARGH
this is SO annoyingness
oh well...
at least my music is keeping me company
:D
got 4 NEW CDS!
:D x 1000000000000000000
haha
umm..
i got
1. the golden age of grotesque by marilyn manson
2. liberation transmission by lostprophets
3. the black parade by mcr
4. the open door by evanescence
:D
i'm SO HAPPY
i'm in love with the manson cd
like OBSESSED with spade, slutgarden and ka-boom ka-boom
hehe x2
