Sunday, December 24, 2006 @ 8:26 AM
  arghwhy is life so complicated?
sometimes i wish i my dad didn't change
then maybe i wouldn't be feeling like this right now
why the hell is he being so nice to me?he's talking to me all the time
he wants me to sit next to him
he congratulated me for my good grades
he wants to take me for drives, like when i was a little girl
he does that holding hand thing in the car that we used to do when i was like 6
he hugs me
he calls me 'cute'
he takes me out
and now, he wants to sleep in my room cos 'he doesnt get to do it for the rest of the year'
sigh.
wat am i supposed to think?
wat does
he expect me to think?
does he think that i'm just gonna accept wats happening and that he's changed for the better?
well...
no.
i mean, he hasn't given two fucks about me since i was 8
why start now?
i'm so used to him putting me down all the time.
i can't stand it! he's being nice to me!
i dunno....maybe i'm just not used to it.
but it just seems to weird to me.
i think there's something he's not telling me.
and i don't really wanna find out what it is.
